I AM ITS CREED!
OK yeah anyway. Sup, peeps. I'm a fan of human males on furry and scalie and dragon females, I admin a group on FA dedicated to that particular theme, I am Tiera Foxglove's room-mate, friend, and the writer of a slice-of-life webcomic she will be illustrating, with usage of low-scifi, special traits for the various species, many of which are based on either a physical trait or a biological one for their real life counterparts, an abstract translation of "nature to nurture" for how the different races come to be what their identities are, and/or based on a political, ideological, or moral concept/foundation. It is going to be meant to say things deeper than the plotlines first seem to convey, in many different ways, as is the larger picture of the story [which will receive less frequent focus but when brought up, it'll be done to comprehensively describe the world as it changes and shifts and adapts around, to, and even because of the characters the story follows, which are comprised of my own stable of characters, Tiera's, a friend of ours by the name of VDrake77, and semi-permanently (possibly completely permanently due to the shifting of outside involvement with the project) adopted characters from others, including Tyamet, Catreece, and Catalina from Chaoscroc's stock, if anyone knows who I am talking about in any case. The comic has been in the development, brainstorming, reference, and organizing stages for the last four years since its conception, and I admit to having faltered in my drive more than a few times and for more than a short period of time each time, but I drew inspiration from the dedication and drive of others I look up to, including some of my friends, my brothers, and even Crowchild and his perseverance on HTH2 despite all the massive setbacks.
The comic will be financed through Patreons and donations. Donations will be rewarded with extra content that is unavailable to non-donators, usually side stories that match a certain quality criteria I have set to be worthwhile bonus material but do not have an effect on the story to an extent that non-donators will be left in the dark to any extent. Other rewards will be based on a sort of tier status; supporter, donator, premium contributor, and sponsor. Supporters get the "premium" side stories. Supporters get those as well as images that are typically much more racy than was viewable in the non-donor shots; for example, one girl in a scene is shirtless while talking to another character, but the frame cuts off before anything particularly racy can be seen. The uncut images would be larger-sized ones with all the eye candy visible. Premium contributors get all that, plus they get access to the full sex scenes that are otherwise either fade-to-blacks (non-donor version or supporter versions) or rated-R (Donator-level) in fully graphic detail and with dialogue [much of which will be obviously erotic in nature] accompanying the frames. They WILL be tastefully done for the most part; sexual, erotic nature, NC-17 rated-X, but not outright XXX, except for a select few that are just plain smut, with no contribution to the plot, just a bonus for Premiums. Sponsors get a character of theirs to be a recurring bit character with a note of significance in the story, and they can also opt to have certain interactions with certain other characters if they so wish. They also get one of the aforementioned porn pages every two weeks, available exclusively to them. Premiums will also get to view some of the "porn plots (which WILL include main, supporting, and bit characters)," but not all of them; the best is reserved for the best.
The tier would be based on average monthly contributions; once someone slips below a certain rung, they don't receive any new content that was available to their previous donating level, but they still receive the stuff from their new, lower level. But if someone contributes one large amount of money, and several months pass, and their average is starting to take them below their current tier, and they give more to lift the average, then they'll keep getting that content until their average falls below the line. That way people don't have to donate on a monthly basis; they can donate however much they want for whatever rewards they want. Sponsors, however, if they keep up a constant donation level for a set amount of time, say 3-6 months that is keeping them well above the needed average to be sponsors, they can request to have their characters do a porn page with one of their choosing even if the character in question is in a devoted/faithful relationship...and it can even be considered canon, though that's circumstantial and situational and I'll mull that over when I come to that point.
Anyway. I used to be an artist about 10 years ago, it was a very passionate hobby of mine that I found much solace, comfort, and inspiration in. It went from hobby to source of income and socializing back in DeviantART's early days, once it started taking off. VCL had provided some of that, but to a VERY limited extent. I befriended others, including another artist who was quite popular herself, and whose name is probably still recognizable, but whom I am not going to name. She taught me a lot of techniques for anatomy and methods for coloring, shading, and environments, I taught her a bunch of techniques for facial expressions, character designs, and posing. Her friends and fans started paying more attention to me than her, it seemed, and she grew to resent me. Petty bitch took a bunch of characters I had designed to interact with hers and claimed them as hers via images she had drawn only for me and a few of my friends, which hadn't been posted up and had been drawn up before those characters had ever started being posted in depictions in my gallery. She stole claim over well over a hundred and fifty images of my own and at least a score of my characters, and then accused me of being the character and art thief. Our friends were bewildered. Heh. Our. Funny word.
Problem with people being friends with you when you're popular; it's usually because you're popular. People not so in the know on things, and that was a large number of them believed her accusations, I became vilified, the admins sided with her, and most of those "friends" jumped ship back to The Wretched Bitch's side, clucking like hens in the aftermath how they "suspected things" about me and other kiss-ass sycophantic hypocritical bullshit. What hurt me the most was me and her were friends. Close friends. VERY. Close. Friends. We weren't in a relationship, we were too far away, but we still had a thing whenever we traveled to see each other, though I usually had to devise a pretext to do so [17 at the time; make up bullshit to the foster parents about a school trip or seeing some remnant of my family yadda yadda. I don't think they would have been too happy if I told them it was to go hang out with a 22 year old woman five states away that I was...well, affectionately involved with, would be the proper term]. We used to draw in oekaki and opencanvas with each other all the time, making pictures with our characters and practicing our styles together. That's what hurt so much about it. First time I had ever been betrayed by someone I cared about, much less on THAT scale, and cared THAT much about and had THAT much of a personal, trusting connection to. And I was the one who ended up the villain. I was the one who got to deal with people harassing me via every method possible. See...some of her more kiss-ass-y fame-leeching friends decided it'd be cute to let my phone number and address "slip." So for over two months, my cell phone was getting blown up, I was getting hate mail in my email and my home mail, I got death threats a few times (didn't care or take them seriously; they were death threats from furries for ****'s sake, and I spent my entire life dealing with abuse and assault growing up, and I spent most of that time living first in the eastern ((crime-filled hell hole)) district, and then later in the 5-Mile ring in Detroit; they just really **** annoyed and distracted me and pissed me the hell off), and even had someone try to get me banned from a bunch of RP forum boards I was very active in, though at least that they didn't succeed in.
Tl;dr: I was traumatized from ever being an artist again. Every attempt afterwards for myself or my few friends who remained loyal to me and showed they were my ACTUAL friends whom I could actually trust just petered out. I couldn't connect to my artwork any more. I felt no more inspiration, no pleasure, nothing. That feeling has never gone away in the decade since. I broke the spell with one single image I made in total despondency, and now I wish I hadn't cuz the damn thing is a reminder I don't want, but...well, a reminder I need. I'll stop being cryptic now. Basically, I needed a new creative pursuit, but in a different medium. I love reading. I love RPing. I'm a fast reader, I'm an adaptable and enthusiastic RPer, I can type quickly, and I love thinking up stories and ideas. My art was meant to convey those stories and ideas, but they could only tell a pixel of a story at a time. I had idly toyed with writing, usually via fanfictions, though more than a few original works of my own, too. I enjoyed English and Literature immensely and was an honor roll student in them. So I started writing with more focus, more energy, more dedication.
A couple years later, I publish an erotica novel that prints 15,000 copies and sells almost all of them. I also published dozens of entries in Cleansheets, an erotica subscription magazine, got quite a bit of feedback from that, which helped me with my writing abilities further, and not just in erotica, though it's what I long since came to terms with knowing that that is what I am best at writing. I'm good in other areas, but erotica is just my specialization, I guess. Anyway, the feedback led to another erotica novel a year later, printed at 20,000 copies, all of which sold out over the course of a year and a half. I haven't found links to either of them online, and I don't remember the name of the publisher anymore. But, if I ever find a way to reference to them somehow, I'll see if I can get them sold in digital copies on Amazon and stuff so more people can read them. Probably just charge a buck for 'em, honestly...
Anyway. Tl;dr: That's my story, or at least the story as to who I am as an identity in the furfandom. I used to be an artist, I had fun with that, it was my passion, it got ripped off from me by someone I trusted closely, it was used against me, no justice ever came from it, quite the opposite, I lost my interest in art, and took up writing, and I've actually found some successes with that in the past. Alas, with the webcomic, and with the fact I am a type-2 bipolar disorder patient that suffers from months-long bouts of pervasive bipolar depression quite frequently and I'm still trying to find the right meds to help me with that, my writing output as far as self-contained stories goes has been nil.
I actually offered to provide stuff to HTH's erotica section, but they already got some peeps for that. Still, perhaps some fanfiction would be easy to do...
Writer's block, man. It's a bitch. And finding a way around it, an even bigger one.
So hopefully that provided some fun reading and some insight into who I, an otherwise total stranger are to you, am. This forum may not be hoppin', but still, bound to be some interesting peeps here all the same, I assume.
Subject: Heresy?! HERESY!!! 
Sat Dec 13, 2014 10:48 am
